Don't you ever say I just walked away I will always want you.
I know you'll forget.
But please try not to.
"Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies."
For some reason I thought I could do this. I thought I could bring you guys all together and we'd live on this site for years and watch each other grow up and have kids and go through things and help each other survive. But that isn't how life works is it? Life ends.
I guess I always saw IvyClan and United Warriors Run as the word 'eternity'. But let's face it. We'll all grow up. And we'll all grow up, and grow old, and forget about these sites. And that's the terrible sad truth. And I hate to say it.
I hate to say it, but... thinking it is even worse.
I don't know what to say.
Am I supposed to cry? I did that all these years. You all know I cried over these sites, but that was months ago. Now its just kind of dull. Not that I don't feel anything, but its a numb, more shocking sadness.
Because I know I cannot do a single thing about it. Aquafern always wanted to bring it back, but I know the reality of that.
You can't bring something back. Things change. Nothing. Ever. Stays. The. Same.
I don't know how to make this intense, or a good goodbye.
But I don't really want to make it a good goodbye.
A lot of people I know will think that I'm not truly a good friend since I'm just letting you all go.
But that's not true at all.
I just don't know what else to give you anymore.
Somehow I think talking to you would just hurt. Just hurt because it'd remind me of all we had, but we lost.
Because we grew up.
But I'm scared now. I don't want to grow up anymore. I remember how on IvyClan I wanted to be big like the other IvyClanners, how I was always one of the youngest role players. But I want to be little again.
Yeah, I know... this is just complaining about my life. It's not that hard really, I just feel like I'm loosing some part of my heart, my soul.
And I can't do anything at all to get it back. No one wants to role play anymore, we've grown out of it.
No one has anymore ideas on what to do.
Don't act surprised though. You knew this was coming. You knew it was over... the minute this site hit a ridge...
Its just too bad we couldn't get it back.
But the most amazing things end young.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I feel like I can't breathe... I'm so sorry.... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
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